Matters of the heart

My sweet sister is lying in an induced coma in Provo, Utah. Fear of brain damage has prompted the doctors to lower her body temperature. In 24 hours they will bring her body back to normal temperature. At that point they will determine the next course of action.

I was awakened with a dream this morning around 2:30 a.m. While processing my dream I felt a spirit presence enter the room. I walked over to the computer and looked at my face book account. I saw a post from my niece only minutes old telling me about her mom. Since that time I have been pondering over her condition and the possible reasons why this has happened.

She has given her whole life to her family. She has raised her 4 children while working full time. She always places others before her self. 

I have been closer to her these past few years. She has experienced more than her share of heart break. I was able to be part of her life by helping her when she needed repairs done on her home. She asked me to install some tile last month. I told her I would only do it if the pay was a dozen pints of her homemade tomato salsa. She gave me that and more. I watched as her energy levels dropped last month. I talked with her about life and asked if she was happy. I asked her if she had done everything she wanted to do in life. I reminded her not to wait too long to find her dreams and live them. Now ... it may be too late.

I have been grateful for learning this sooner than later in my life. Life is fragile and we are not often aware of the sudden changes that can happen in our lives. Conditions of the heart go far beyond the physical stresses that we place upon our bodies. Our hearts are responsible for much more than pumping blood. Our hearts are at the center of our entire being. The heart processes and is capable of doing far more than we are aware. Our heart processes emotions and when negative emotions are left untreated, dis-ease begins to take over and break down our bodies. Matters of the heart are difficult to diagnose and treat. If symptoms are treated without knowing the causes, the cure is seldom successful. 

Treating the whole being is lacking in Western medicine. I take a holistic approach when I look at my own health. Looking at my symptoms has given me a starting point to find the cause of my distress. 

I found a book many years ago that now has worn pages. I turned to it today to begin a process of discovery. It is called, “Feelings Buried Alive Never Die...” by Karol K Truman. 

Karol says there are many reasons for Heart Problems: 

Violating the laws of love; knowingly or unknowingly

Feelings of compassion or rejection being blocked

Feelings of resentment and /or hurt

Not feeling approval from others

Upsetting family problems

Has a difficult time forgiving (including self)

Wanting to release from responsibility

In a relationship that hurts

I don’t know all the buried feelings of my sister. I know part of her story and Karol has touched on possible causes for my sisters heart condition. My sister was aware of her heart condition when I talked with her last month. Both the physical and emotional problems.

She wore a heart monitor then and was working with a heart specialist who was beginning treatment for her. She didn’t know how serious her condition was. She felt she had time to work out these matters of the heart. She met with a councilor to begin the process of resolving her emotional issues. Her condition is more critical than any of us are aware. Her heart knew. It takes time to heal a broken heart that has been suffering for years. I reach out to her knowing that she is close by. I send her my love. My gratitude. I Love you, Jolene.