Sunday, January 15, 2012

Caller ID


Caller ID
Hello?
Who?
Who?
I use my caller ID to prescreen my calls when someone dials my number. I can usually tell who is calling by the number that is displayed on the screen.
Area code 209?
Who is this?
I placed my number on the National Do Not Call List. It is a free service provided to help block those annoying telemarketers who call at inconvenient times. 
The police have bypassed this somehow and still want me to buy tickets or give money to support a cause for something or other. 
Intimidation.
I finally got the courage to just say no to them and to take me off their list. I have been picking up and threatening other blocked callers with being reported to the Do Not call registry. Most do not call back.
Here is a link to place your number on the National Do Not Call list.
There is a glitch in the government system. Telemarketers can pay a fee to access our information.
There are exemptions for certain organizations who can still access our information for free.
I have registered my number and it does cut down on those meal time calls.
My mind drew a blank on the 209 area code.
How many other ....’s do you know?
A few...
This is .... .......!
Oh.
What now ... I thought?
My mind raced through a number of scenarios.
I want to talk to you about ...
Oh, oh!
Early last year I made a decision to clean out some closets. I sorted through unused items and threw other things out that had long ago served their usefulness. I have given things to those that can use them.
It was a resetting of my life. 
The death of my wife left a huge empty place in my heart and in my life. The last 17 years have been consumed in sharing life’s joy with my friend and lover. 
A few months ago, things shifted for me. I knew it was time to move forward again. 
I started cleaning out the closets of my life.
This phone call was the last dark corner of my life coming to the light again.
I made some choices 18 years ago to live my life in an unconventional way. I thought that I had resolved my earlier conflicts and moved into a place of balance. 
The phone call proved me wrong.
I could feel the anger and the resentment of 18 years begin to surface, I heard my self saying things that were not kind. I was far from a peaceful place for those first minutes. 
A patient and questioning voice continued to draw me out of my dark corner.
I saw myself as an observer of this conversation. I watched as I begin to calm, and soften to the words being spoken.
Truth was being voiced. 
I had been wrong.
I was wrong in my judgements.
I was wrong in trusting false information.
I was wrong in not going to the Source.
There was a new beginning for me last night. I was reminded of a prayer that I asked earlier.
“Show me any unresolved conflicts in my life so that I can move forward into the Light.”
I apologized many times last night. 
Trust will need to be rebuilt again, but the door is open to heal and move forward in a positive direction again.
I have a 16 year old son who is wanting to get his drivers license. I haven’t seen him since he was an infant. He wants to have the same last name as his brothers and sisters. They are all he has known.
I gave my consent.
I don’t apologize for my life, it has molded me into the Man I am today.
Mistakes?
A lot.
Being Human is what life is all about. This is a temporary condition that will change as we pass our self imposed tests. Tests that we ourselves created. These tests and challenges will add to the knowledge and wisdom of the Spiritual Eternal Being that lies within us all.
It is a new day for me.
The sun is shining a little more brightly today. 
The birds singing more sweetly.
My heart is lighter.
I passed through a dark night of the soul, and now on the other side, I wonder why I felt to carry it so long?
I am so grateful that I chose to pick up that call last night.
It has made all the difference.