Monday, February 6, 2012

Union


Union
Another Epiphany took place in my life today. 
I was sharing some of my life with my cousin today, it has been 40 years since I last saw her, so we are catching up on life events. It was while we were sharing that this epiphany took place.
Birth and Death are events that impact all of us. When a baby enters our world and family either by personal experience or extended family, our lives are enriched with that new presence. We share our lives with them and they share their spirit and essence with us.
We become more like them and they become more like us.
When someone dies who is close to us we grieve because of our loss and separation.
It is because of this perceived loss and disconnection that we experience sadness and loneliness.
My sadness, 
My tears, 
My emotional response, 
My memories, 
These are all connection to that person.
I am just now beginning to recognize that when I have a thought about my wife or father or grandparent who has passed on, I am reconnecting with them on a very profound level. My emotional body recognizes this and my tears begin to well up, my heart begins to expand, the outer world moves slightly out of focus and I find myself in an altered state of mind. It is during this connection that I am able to perceive the profound thoughts and wisdom from them. They have merged with me, and I, with them. 
I feel Union.
       I am connected to their love and very essence. 
I haven’t lost these people in my life, they have now become an intimate part of me.
I have interpreted this feeling as loss. 
I have been wrong.
This feeling is Connection.
Connection to Spirit.
Connection to God.
Connection with my Higher Self.
Connection to Family.
When I am in this state I feel uninhibited and free and inspired and full of joy and full of life.
My new found realization can now be a celebration of each experience as Oneness with them.
There is no longer a feeling of sadness.
I rejoice at my newly defined relationships.  
They are reminders that my relationships have been, and always will be ...
Forever.